TRANSFORMATION
Lord Jesus, I want to become the best version of myself, I want to know you more, I want to do your will and I want to be a carrier of your glory. But I can't seem to make them happen, I can't seem to actualize them. My strength fails me, I want to but I can't. The passion to seek you is gone, and the desire is slowly fading away. Psalm 51. You're in awe...are you still the same person who was so enthusiastic about the things of God? You begin to doubt the authenticity of who you are in Christ. Where am I? What am I? Why am I like this? The devil gradually begins to invade your thoughts and makes you feel worthless. You allow it because you tell yourself what else can I do? I have tried, I have prayed, I have fasted, but it's still the same. It keeps on going in cycles; I keep rising and falling, there is no result in it. You comfort yourself and say, "What will be will be?"Does God not see all of these things and watch me wallow in this sit...